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PART 4

FORGOTTEN
Arini Veradiani

            Maybe, it was long enough to recover my heart, to made it well. it hurted, but I try to deleted it. Deleted that memories. and I shocked when I knew that I just flied, a just felt that he loved me, but it didn’t. He said that we were just a friend, and not more! Damn ! After  every smile, every care, every times and every kindness that he give is just as friend, every jealous was a friend?! how come ?! jealous means love. and every promise that he said to my bestfriend about me, he wanted we will.. bla bla bla,   he  wanted someday, bla bla bla…. , does it mean we were just a friend? not more? does it mean that he didn’t have a feeling to me ? does it mean that he never LOVE me ? I Think it was a big untruth. he didn’t want to forfeit me, but he wasted me.okay, I accepted. I accepted that shit promise. And it made me never believed him anymore. It means, I would follow his wanted, to be an usual person, and I had to throw my love to him away. and I cried for a thousand times. and left a thousand tears.

            And for a thousand times, I left…
            And I was sure that I am Okay now…
            And till the day when I didn’t love him… anymore….

            But  Well, now is a not bad day, but not too good too. It was because, something, make me really 100% confused that day. I didn’t know, how could I do that when I saw his face, It was really hurt. and it has making me thingking about it, until now.
            And I have passed it. Today is today, and my plan for now is, forget him, well, I have done, but I am afraid to fall depper, I don’t want to love him anymore when I have known “who is the real Bill” ?! Thank You So Much for it, Bill, You teach me, how to be careful and not to be easy to fly. I hope someday, you will be better, and of course me, Maisy Sherlynee, will be happy  with a real one J

The End ~

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PART 3

FORGOTTEN
Arini Veradiani

            It was a beautiful day, but not as beautiful as my heart. I didn’t know, how can I felt, “ HE DIDN’T LOVE” , he was so different, and liked that proofs was false. and everytime I asked, there was always a reason he said. I often asked it, and it always like this, he changed! into a cold man.

            And, till I felt so tired to make him realized, he never realized! NEVER! He busier, busier and busier, and I just didn’t know what I’ve got to say anymore! It was empty!

            and it made me so hot! I think that I had to be more clear, and I just wanted him to realized, realized that he left me liked He never recognized me during his life! it was crazy! And you know when I told it? he blamed me ! he blamed me, God ?! oh, what was he thingking ? was he crazy ? or what ?! he didn’t realized about his mistakes, and blamed me for it!

            Until I said my angriness to him, I told it to him! and he apologized, well, accepted, but, It was just an apologized, not more, and after that, he still didn’t care about me anymore! he forgot! 100% forgot !

            And I know that he never asked me anything, told and chatted anything, never. he busier and busier, and there, he found a very nice and beautiful girl, Laura. I knew that Laura 100% sweeter, smarter, higher, prettier, better, and bla bla bla…. than me, I knew I knew.

            And it was so suck, when I knew that I was jealous, but, it was fair right ? I loved him and I felt it! But I realized, that I was not his girlfriend, I knew that I just a usual person, like another. and there was no reason to me to angry to him, I just could hold it, keep holding on in my mind, my heart, and he never felt it, hurt.

            I found many proof for it, their photos, their messages, their chats, and etc.  I didn’t know it from another, I just saw it with my own eyes, so, I felt so sick directly.

*to be continued…

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PART 2

FORGOTTEN
Arini Veradiani

            Okay, time never stop for this life, until I knew that, I LOVED HIM, and he treated me like his girlfriend, I realized that I was not his girl, but his way said that, his smile, his behavior as a proofs! and it happened when I felt in love with him, once more! LOVE! IN LOVE! He was better, was happier, was more more and more and of course more handsome on my eyes.

            And averytime he looked me, it said that I belonged to him, and him, belonged to me, Although there wasn’t a word “ IN RELATIONSHIP” no, it was not.

            I felt that he was jealous if there was another closed to me, like Jemmy, my ex-special friend, Bill was angry, and he warned  me about it. and it meant : BILL LOVED ME, how could he jealous if he didn’t love ?

            And when every problem was solved, it walked still like this, like this and like this, well, I still loved him, but I didn’t know about his mind.  till I guessed, that he was so bored with me. but, it was just an opinion, not a fact.

            Usually, in every time we went to some places, it was a happy moment, but, it started less less and less. I didn’t know, his way, liked he was so far. but well, I asked about it to him, and he always give me a reason. He was busy, he was tires, and it was Okay. I saw.

            And it took a long time for his “ busy and tired time” he liked never came back. He treated me like another one, he rarely asked about my day, and everything, he rarely talked to me, and told me about “How are you ?”, rarely.

*to be continued…

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PART 1

FORGOTTEN
Arini Veradiani

            Ok, my name is Maisy, I’m a teenager, and of course I’m a failed one for love. Well, That is Bill, my schoolmate. I have recognized him for a long time, I have been knowing him since I was ninth years old, well, maybe we are an old friend.

            And now, I ‘m in twelve grade in senior high school, and I just talk to him, a crazy thing right ! ??!  and in this story, he was so care to me, in everything, he knew about my day, my activity, my time, and also my socks *oh, I’m kidding

            Because we were too close, and “Close” means, that he never talked to me like he talked to my friend. I didn’t know, what it did mean, but… Everytime we chatted, I felt like, there was so many of flower grew in my head, it was a happiness. His words was different from usual. I knew that ! from every way that he showed, every words and every sentences, every eyes when he looked me, and it showed that he “like” me, and “like” mean…. I Don’t Know

            And as time goes by.. It was made us closer, closer and closer, till my heart felt, I a little bit loved him, more than just like, but it was just my feeling. In every chance I met him, he smiled, he cared, he always had a time to help me, always there to made me smile, and could we call it as “friend”? I think, as a girl, of course it made me flying to the sky, It was more than friend, but I still tried, to made a sure about it, of course with my heart.

            And when time showed it, I realized that I Loved him, because, he never treated me liked his friend, he was too care to me, and everyway was so different! how could I say if that was not a LOVE? and, think that It was an imagination?! Damn ! It was a reality , Maisyyy! and I Think, I started to love him.

*to be continued

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KISAH SEMU DI MATANYA
arini veradiani

            Bukan sore yang indah ketika aku duduk termenung di halaman depan rumahku. Kupandangi sekelilingku sesaat sebelum seseorang membuat telepon genggamku berdering. Kulihat telepon genggamku, dan kudapati sebuah pesan tercantum dilayarnya.

            Ah, Kali ini dari Nasya. Yah, Ia sahabatku yang kukenal sejak aku di Sekolah Dasar. Kubuka pesan itu, dan kubaca perlahan. Ternyata ia ingin datang kerumahku dan menceritakan suatu kejadian yang mungkin akan terasa sangat menyakitkan. Dan tentu saja, kuizinkan ia datang.

            Kutunggu kedatangannya di ruang Lavender dibelakang Ruang tamu. Kutunggu sosoknya dari Jendela berkaca lusuh di dinding sampingku. Yah, Ia tak kunjung datang. Namun aku yakin, sosok Nasya yang aku kenal sejk lamaak mungkin membohongiku. Berbuah dari kesabaran, akhirnya aku mendengar suara ketukan di pintu depan rumahku, setelah cukup lama tertidur di sofa ketika aku menunggunya.

            Kubuka pintu itu dengan setengah sadar. Yah, bayang di dunia mimpi masih melayang – laying di benakku. Dan dengan mata yang belum terbuka sepenuhnya, aku melihat sesosok perempuan, yang taka sing lagi, namun terlihat lain. Kupaksakan keluar dari alam bawah sadarku. Kubuat diriku benar – benar terbangun dan berdiri dengan seimbang di dunia yang sekarang sedang aku masuki. Yah, ini bukan lagi mimpi.

            Setelah kuluruskan tatapanku, aku baru sadar bahwa yang tengah mematung didepanku adalah seorang Nasya, namun begitu lain di mataku. Ia tampak lusuh, kusut dan berantakan. Diwajahnya terlukiskan kisah semu yang dipendamnya dan hamper meledak. Jejak – jejak airmata masih nampak dibawah mata birunya. Seberkas memar menyebar di beberapa bagian di wajahnya yang cantik, bibirnya berdarah dan ada sedikit lebam. Aku benar – benar terkejut melihat kondisinya. Aku langsung membawanya ke kamarku. Sampai di kamarku, Ia langsung menangis sejadi – jadinya. Air mata mengalir deras dan menyusuri pipinya yang merah dan biru. Aku memintanya untuk tenang dan mengatur nafasnya. Namun Ia tetap menangis dan langsung menceritakan semuanya.

            Ternyata semua berawal dari kisahnya dengan mantan pacarnya kemarin.  Lelaki itu tidak menyukai karena Nasya mengikuti klub Teater di kota asal kelahiran lelaki itu, Bogor. Dan Nasya langsung diajak lelaki itu untuk pergi kesana dan mengundurkan diri dari klub itu. Namun, Nasya menolak karea ia terlanjr menyukai klub itu. Jadi,  lelaki itu menjambak rambut Nasya dengan sangat menyakitkan, menariknya ke mobil, dan menghempaskan pintu mobil sampai jari Nasya hamper terjepit. Ketika Nasya masuk, lelaki itu mengambil posisi untuk meyetir mobil dan mencaci – maki Nasya dengan semati – matinya. Air mata Nasya dengan derasnya membasahi wajahnya yang sudah pucat pasi. Lalu Lelaki itu mencabik- cabik tubuh dan kakinya dengan kunci mobil ketika mereka turun dibelakang sebuah Restorant yang sedang tutup. Lelaki itu melayangkan belasan tonjokkan, dan membuat Nasya berdarah disana – sini. Tendangan dan jambakan pun dilayangkannya berkali – kali hingga Nasya terjatuh dan tak berdaya. Setelah itu, Lelaki itu menarik rambutnya sampai masuk ke mobil dan mengantarkannya pulang. Lalu lelaki itu pulang dengan mulut yang membisu.

            Keesokannya, lelaki itu datang lagi kerumah Nasya. dan dengan sangat berat hati, Nasya menghampirinya. Lelaki itu langsung berlutut sambil menangis, meminta maaf dan memohon ampun dengan kata yang sejadi – jadinya. Dan, dengan ketulusannya,Nasya pun memaafkannya. dan keesokan harinya, Nasya langsung pindah keluar kota dan tak lagi tinggal di rumahnya yang dulu.

            Astaga, betapa pilunya perasaan seorang perempuan yang dianiaya habis – habisan. Kunasihati dia, dan kutenangkan dia, kuhapus airmatanya yang mulai mengering, kuobati luka – lukanya yang menyebar di sepanjang tangan dan kakinya, dan ia meminta izin untuk menginap di rumahku malam itu, dan tentu saja aku mengizinkannya. Dan ini benar – benar menjadi pelajaran bagiku, untuk tidak mudah terjebak kepada kata – kata orang dan untuk bisa lebih memilih orang secara selektif dan lebih berhati – hati dalam bergaul.