Cerber - ForgottenPart4

PART 4

FORGOTTEN
Arini Veradiani

            Maybe, it was long enough to recover my heart, to made it well. it hurted, but I try to deleted it. Deleted that memories. and I shocked when I knew that I just flied, a just felt that he loved me, but it didn’t. He said that we were just a friend, and not more! Damn ! After  every smile, every care, every times and every kindness that he give is just as friend, every jealous was a friend?! how come ?! jealous means love. and every promise that he said to my bestfriend about me, he wanted we will.. bla bla bla,   he  wanted someday, bla bla bla…. , does it mean we were just a friend? not more? does it mean that he didn’t have a feeling to me ? does it mean that he never LOVE me ? I Think it was a big untruth. he didn’t want to forfeit me, but he wasted me.okay, I accepted. I accepted that shit promise. And it made me never believed him anymore. It means, I would follow his wanted, to be an usual person, and I had to throw my love to him away. and I cried for a thousand times. and left a thousand tears.

            And for a thousand times, I left…
            And I was sure that I am Okay now…
            And till the day when I didn’t love him… anymore….

            But  Well, now is a not bad day, but not too good too. It was because, something, make me really 100% confused that day. I didn’t know, how could I do that when I saw his face, It was really hurt. and it has making me thingking about it, until now.
            And I have passed it. Today is today, and my plan for now is, forget him, well, I have done, but I am afraid to fall depper, I don’t want to love him anymore when I have known “who is the real Bill” ?! Thank You So Much for it, Bill, You teach me, how to be careful and not to be easy to fly. I hope someday, you will be better, and of course me, Maisy Sherlynee, will be happy  with a real one J

The End ~